The weight of it

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I am laying here on my bed
Exhausted of carrying these around 
so i let my sorrows crawl out of me 
And now they are staring at me. 

Reminding me of the times when 
I couldn’t talk my feelings out
And now all those feelings and 
Words seems to be dried out in drought 

Reminding me of the times when 
 i was confused and so i pushed away people 
And now i wish if i had someone to
Hear me out while we sit under the maple 

Reminding me of times when
I missed out chances at life because 
Of fear, doubt and what not
And here i’m, wishing if I could 
run away from the miseries i have caused. 

Stare at me for as long as 
you want my friends. 
Oh yeah, i called you friend because everyone leaves but not you, my melancholic friends.

Now crawl back into me
Let me resume my journey 
Let me carry the weight of you
Until my knees are weak and back hurts 
Let me be the victim of my on deeds. 

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